We Rise By Lifting Others

Thank you to everyone who has lifted us with prayers, positivity, distractions, comfort food (guess my summer bod will have to wait til next summer haha!), medical funds and all the fun stuff for my girls.

We have been overwhelmed with gratitude and I swear we will come out of this better people. Jake and I have never been selfish people but.. we have been very busy over the past few years and have overlooked simple things that we could've done along the way to help people. I'm amazed at the outpouring of love for my Vivian and my family. We are in awe. It has changed my life and my outlook. People ARE generally good. I had forgotten.

This is continuing to be a tough week. Many, many meltdowns. It's hard to mentally prepare for what's about to come. For awhile, it was easy to ignore. Now I'm physically having to pack up my Bryn to go to Tennessee for a week. I'm having to pack "to-go" bags for Aubrey and make my house make sense for not just me, but anyone who may be coming in to help with my dogs or Aubrey over the next week. I'm packing up my stuff to sit in a hospital room for a week, but not before enduring the most anxiety ridden day of my life Thursday.

I'm dreading it. It's sickening that I have to put my poor girl through this surgery. She is literally perfect right now. Her symptoms compared to what's about to happen.. it just doesn't seem right. It's disgusting. I feel helpless. I have prayed and prayed and prayed.. and at times I feel peace. But other times, I lose my damn mind.


Yesterday we prayed over facetime with a Columbian man who has a stole associated with miracles (very long but amazing story). We had blessed oil that I basically took a bath in and rubbed all over my girls and Vivian's neck and spine. Give me all the blessed oil. We went to Gratto at Bergamo and prayed (and prayed and prayed). So peaceful.

I likely will not update until after our ICU stay. Jake will be able to stay with us because our stay will fall over the weekend. I really only blog when he is not around because if he is around, I just vent to him. I don't need blog therapy if he is around. ;-)

Please keep my girl in your prayers. Specific prayers on Thursday : Steady hand, that the tumor is not intertwined with her spinal cord, that he can remove all of the tumor and no permanent damage. I want my girl running with her sisters next summer.